Tired

I am tired.

Why am I so tired?

All the time.

Tired.

Lend An Ear

Here in Life

Here in Death

Always Here

Just Don’t Smoke Meth

Always Here

Lend An Ear

To Spread Some Cheer

Lend An Ear

Just to Hear

Lend An Ear

To Help Survive

Lend An Ear

To Help Me Thrive

Lend An Ear

Don’t Disrespect

And When I’ve Passed On

Please Don’t Forget

Just Lend An Ear

Peace

He awakens to the sound of birds singing their Praises

Up from his slumber he raises

He straps on his boots

Out from his tent he arises

Peaking through the clouds

The early morning sun shines

The fresh morning dew

Glistens on the bright orange leaves

Of the Sugar Maple trees

His breath he sees

In the crisp Autumn morning air

He inhales deeply

Cleansing his lungs of the dirty city smog

That usually surrounds him like a fog

A bright red cardinal sits in the branches

A deer is drinking from the babbling brook

And he is one with nature

In his soul he finds happiness

And peace

Living Alone, I Bemoan

This living alone

This living alone I bemoan

To wake up

To open my eyes and be…alone

That empty feeling

That rush of panic

Upon my eyes opening

I look and then I see

No one there

As if no one cares

This living alone

This living alone I bemoan

All of this space

Not a person in my face

While awake it feels good

Upon waking up

A different mood

Oh, this living alone

This living alone I bemoan

Too old to live with family

Way beyond the roommate stage

I enjoy my freedom, my space

But this living alone

This living alone I bemoan

A Deep, Dark Void

I’ve got a deep, dark void

Down in my heart

Deep in my soul

God, come and fill it

I just want to feel whole

I’ve got a deep dark void

Deep in my Spirit

So silent, yet so loud

I can almost hear it

It says to me, “You suck”

I just want to give up

Part of me doesn’t give a fuck

God, drive it out

Make me want to shout with glee

Even if this is my final plea

I may not have done well

But I’ve done my best

Please, make me Blessed

I don’t want to burn in Hell

Please, don’t leave me behind

When it comes my time

When I leave this Earth

I want to shine!

In All of God’s Creation

Does anyone really have time for me

In all of God’s Creation?

I’m not exactly suicidal

I just feel so alone

And I’m having ideations

I won’t do anything to myself

I promise, for my dog needs me

He loves me so much, he counts on me

He always tries to please me

Does anyone really have time for me

In all of God’s Creation?

I’m having a really bad day

I’m struggling today

But it’s just in moderation

Does anyone really have time to talk

Over the phone or on a walk?

Does anyone care?

Is anyone there?

In all of God’s Creation?

Oh, Doggo-Man

Oh doggo-man, Oh doggo-man

You fill me with such joy

I love to watch you run around

And play with all your toys

Oh doggo-man, Oh doggo-man

You are with me every day

Even on my worst days

You love me anyway

Oh doggo-man, Oh doggo-man

You are starting to get old

But even after you pass on

My heart will always hold

Oh doggo-man, Oh doggo-man

The time is drawing near

I don’t know how I will survive

It will require lots of beer

Oh doggo-man, Oh doggo-man

I would bring you much fine wine

If it meant you could stay with me

Until the end of time

Honestly Broken

You’re fat, bald and ugly

You’re not getting any younger

You crave success, knowledge, and wisdom

Yet you do nothing to satisfy your hunger

The way you waste opportunities

It’s the worst kind of extravagance

You loathe yourself

For good reason

And the way you treat your body, it’s almost treason

Big Mike, just go to bed

Lie down and rest your weary head

The mind says “No! I cannot rest!

For my stomach churns, and my heart beats out of my chest!”

Big Mike, just let her go!

You know she’s nothing but a God Damned Hoe!

Oh, but no. I love the hoe, you see?

Can’t you see what she means to me?

I know I’m crazy. I should let things lie

But without her, my heart feels like it has died

The knife plunges into my stomach, deeper and deeper

I wish things could be different, that I could keep her

She’s no good for me, nor I for her

I believe “Toxic” is the word

So now, I bid thee adieu

Happy trails, to you, and you, and you

Panic

Panic, Panic, Everywhere

Panic, Panic, Pull out my hair

Panic, Panic, All Around,

Panic, Panic, What’s That Sound?

Panic, Panic, In My Head

Panic, Panic, Go Take My Meds

Panic, Panic, In My Head

Panic, Panic, Go Back To Bed

Panic, Panic, All Alone

Panic, Panic, No One Knows

Panic, Panic, Go Lie Down

Panic, Panic, Stay Away From Town

Panic, Panic, Full Of Fear

Panic, Panic, Just Stay Here

Panic, Panic, It Grows and Grows

Panic, Panic, Don’t Let It Show

Interview Hopes

I had a job interview today

I know I won’t get it

But still I hope

I still pray

I have nothing left

Nothing to hope for

Nothing to live for

Just nothing

Pull myself up by my boot straps

Put on my big boy underwear

Wash the sand out of my pussy

This is just life, another one of life’s craps

Two break-ups in just a few months

Both women were my whole world, if only for that moment

One relationship was several years

The other just a handful of weeks

And now, I have to deal with the pandemic, you know, Covid-19

Self-Care is important right now

But why? What is the point?

I feel butchered inside

Just like a cow

This too shall pass

Even if I have to kick myself in the ass

Just keep my head up

Don’t give life the shaft