Living Alone, I Bemoan

This living alone

This living alone I bemoan

To wake up

To open my eyes and be…alone

That empty feeling

That rush of panic

Upon my eyes opening

I look and then I see

No one there

As if no one cares

This living alone

This living alone I bemoan

All of this space

Not a person in my face

While awake it feels good

Upon waking up

A different mood

Oh, this living alone

This living alone I bemoan

Too old to live with family

Way beyond the roommate stage

I enjoy my freedom, my space

But this living alone

This living alone I bemoan

Honestly Broken

You’re fat, bald and ugly

You’re not getting any younger

You crave success, knowledge, and wisdom

Yet you do nothing to satisfy your hunger

The way you waste opportunities

It’s the worst kind of extravagance

You loathe yourself

For good reason

And the way you treat your body, it’s almost treason

Big Mike, just go to bed

Lie down and rest your weary head

The mind says “No! I cannot rest!

For my stomach churns, and my heart beats out of my chest!”

Big Mike, just let her go!

You know she’s nothing but a God Damned Hoe!

Oh, but no. I love the hoe, you see?

Can’t you see what she means to me?

I know I’m crazy. I should let things lie

But without her, my heart feels like it has died

The knife plunges into my stomach, deeper and deeper

I wish things could be different, that I could keep her

She’s no good for me, nor I for her

I believe “Toxic” is the word

So now, I bid thee adieu

Happy trails, to you, and you, and you

For the Love of Lourdes

God, I love her, I love her so much

But I’m afraid this love is one I cannot touch

My love burns for her

My body yearns for her

But I must stay away

For how long? Who knows?

Maybe until my dying day

My love for her grows

But fear I do not show

Fear I do not feel

This love, this pain, is surreal

This love, it mustn’t be

God, I’m on bended knee

Begging, asking, God, fix this please!

I miss her so much

I long for her touch

To see her beautiful face

To feel her warm embrace

Should I try to move on?

I’ve got to be strong

It’s only her love that I want to know

But, with every second the pain grows

Maybe one day, we will be together again

Until then, it will never end

This pain I feel

So real

So strong

So long…